“Do you think you’re beautiful?”

Someone asked me this question today and was quite taken aback.

I’ve never once thought that I fit the worldly standard definition of pretty but I don’t think that I am ugly too (arrrgh, i don’t even know how an ugly person looks like).

Oh, of course, my answer was an undoubtedly no. What was I supposed to say?

Honestly, I don’t think I look as close as Kate Moss or those models who are on the covers of every magazine. Admit it, this world has a definition of how beauty looks like. It’s sad but it’s true. And probably, one can say that the amount of likes you get from a portrait of you on Facebook or Instagram says a lot of how people perceived you. More likes is tantamount to being pretty.

Confidence is the key.

Huh, easier said than done, right? I don’t know about you but the only time that I look at myself in front of the mirror is when I put on my make-up. It’s kind of scary to look at your own reflection when you know all your imperfections. Ridiculous, isn’t it?

But, have you ever saw yourself laughing? How your face lights up reading the book that you love? Listening to music that you enjoy? Adoring the sky and the stars? No. And as they say, happy girls are the prettiest, so, don’t let your reflection tell you otherwise.

Still, I can’t proudly say that “I am beautiful”. It’s hard. Really haaaaard.

Anyway, we are all beautiful in our own way. Never forget that.

[Just thought I’d share this]



June 8 2019 | Lab

Well, I just wanted to let this out of my system. During our laboratory class, I got asked about the synthesis that we were supposed to do today.

And I told our substitute professor the truth, “I am sorry but I’ve never done this experiment before”.

In which she replied, “you shouldn’t be in the lab”… and, at that moment, I’ve never felt so stupid.

I came here to learn something new—to improve my analytical skills, to have a deeper understanding of chemistry.

I am so sorry for not pretending that I know everything. I don’t want to be a know-it-all when I am not… for pete’s sake

And, to you, before you are what you are now… weren’t you a student before?

[JMovie] Review… sort of

Drowning Love

Okay, honestly… I NEVER UNDERSTOOD THIS MOVIE. I may or may not be dumb. Man, I don’t know. The plot was so confusing, I have no idea whether Koh died or not. Did he!????

As for the movie poster, this movie is anything but sunshine and rainbow.

Whenever I watch a movie, I never read synopsis nor watch the trailer.

Surprise me. That is what I always thought.

Let me just leave this here, I don’t know why blonde-haired japanese boys are so dang attractive!! (ie: Hiro of Koizora!!!)

If anyone have seen this, kindly enlighten me.

My Brother’s Friend

Probably, 80% of young adult population would find this movie a bit cringey… but this is quite good. Not as bad as you lot might thought.

There are scenes that are funny, really. Considering the guy never dated before and inexperienced and I don’t know, I actually find his innocence... appealing (Though I must say that this isn’t my ideal love story lol).

Plot: 5/10 but still an okay movie.

If you’re looking for something light and you have an hour and a half to spare, well, this movie is for you.

Side note: I just need a breather! And I’ve been burying myself with biochemistry books that I feel like I am about to lose my sanity >.< (japanese movies aren’t as heavy and dramatic than any other foreign films! except for this drowning love argh!)

[images used aren’t mine (via google); no copyright infringement intended]

PS: are the movie posters visible to you? Apparently, wordpress keeps on saying “unable to upload this post’s media”? I dont know why?

Easier said than done

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Take one path or the other — just go ahead and do it.

At some point, time will come that you have to make a life-altering decision. It might make your already miserable life for better or worse. But, that’s not the point, be it right or wrong you’ll never know until you are already travelling the path you’ve taken.

Let us not dwell on the road not taken, instead, focus on the road you have chosen. It’s only natural to look back and wonder WHAT IF you have chosen the other path?

Be it the one less travelled by or the other one, that’s up to you. In reality, what really matters is not the destination but the journey.

Be it a grassy road or not, you’ll never know. You just won’t. Just as you won’t know what the future holds.

So, cheer up.

Choose the path you like with confidence. And make it the right one.

I always look back at this poem as this helps me relax and relieve my anxiety everytime I am having a hard time about a decision I just made. For I am type who does things… quite impulsively. As I tend to overthink until I just decided not to do anything at all.

So, what I am trying to say, is live your life the way you wanted it to be… but with integrity.

Life’s too short not to make mistakes.

PS: I won’t be watching dramas right now as I feel like an idiot at grad school. Instead of feeling demotivated, I have a lot of studying to do to be able to catch up.

PPS: I’ll just enjoy earthly things during our term break. So much for enjoying life.

PPPS: And oh, let us enjoy life without jeopardizing our future.




It’s official! Today was my first day as a graduate student (MS Chemistry)!!!!! I was really nervous and excited, at the same time.

Good things that happened so far:

1. Got admitted to graduate school;

2. I will be presenting in a conference;

3. Accepted as a full-time scholar;

4. Resigned from my current job!!!!!!!!!!! (Finally!!! No more toxic work environment!!!!!!)

Halfway through 2019 and dang son, so far, so good.